I am sure all mothers see this, but sleeping with my boys for the last few weeks has really thrown me down a time warp. Both boys revert to infancy in their sleep.
Nate's face IS the face I first met in 2006. His hands and mouth curl in the very way they did as a new baby. When wrapped up in a sleeping bag, he looks as peaceful as he did in the womb, and I watch silently to dissect and understand his every twitch. It's not a momentary thing, but a state; frozen in time and held there by sleep.
Max will be ten in a week. Asleep, his cheeks fall forward and his eyelashes rest, leaving a slight shadow- because they are so beautifully long. He doesn't need to be anything but asleep, and his body and face are happy and soft.
I used to watch them sleep from the doorway when they were babies, but laying nose to nose forces my mind from "isn't that sweet?" to "isn't that aMAZing?!" It's amazing. One of those amazing things. Look at your babies. You will see it too. It makes no sense, but its mesmerizing and will play with your mind.